As he is. I become.
Author: Holy Moose
Don’t be sad.
Your biggest love is right here.
The love of your life.
Some people don’t like it when you rise to the top.
They cannot stand that you’re successful.
And so I’ve learned…
Not to be afraid of being an asshole.
Whether on purpose or not.
To someone, somewhere, you will always be one.
Some people can’t stand it when you resist.
They cannot deal with the fact you’re not taking it like a champ when they’re beating you down.
And they only see what they want to see.
Through their own pain and suffering.
Their level of understanding and beliefs.
As much as anyone would love to make someone else see things differently, it might just be impossible.
And so you must live with that.
Deal with it.
When you have the tools to handle it, you can come through the other side even better.
As we seek love and acceptance, this may be no easy task.
To accept that sometimes we won’t be loved and accepted.
And to love…
First and foremost.
A while ago I felt him awaken within me.
For the longest time, he slept.
Caged and chained.
He’s free now, I thought.
I’ve let him go, but I still put a leash on him.
I guess, I was afraid to let him roam.
Completely free to go anywhere he wants.
Do whatever he wants.
Oh, and he’s got no fear.
Thoughts and opinions of others mean nothing.
He’s freedom itself.
One I’ve desired for so, so long.
I’ve come to love him.
Stronger and deeper with time.
He has no concept of perfection.
He’s got the courage to take what he wants and needs.
But he doesn’t need to be brave.
He doesn’t need to be anything.
He just is.
Thus, he can have it all.
He has it all.
Judgement haunts me, but is nothing to him.
My beliefs stop me.
While he believes in nothing.
He doesn’t need to.
So what happens if I truly let go?
I know that a lot of amazing things will come.
But it’s a special feeling that pushes me forward.
I feel him rise.
As he does, so do I.
A feeling so strong.
So extremely powerful.
Like a broken dam that can no longer hold the flow of a river.
My thoughts, fears, anxiety.
The way I judge myself.
My desire to be good, so I can be seen as good by others.
Be loved by others.
It’s all just broken pieces of what I thought I should be.
No longer capable of stopping who I am.
It’s time to level up.
I no longer fit in this box.
Never was supposed to.
It’s not easy.
Even painful at times.
But it’s just so damn incredible.
To feel this power.
To know I’m more than I ever thought I could be.
It must go.
Let it flow.
If only I silence my thoughts…
The ones that want me to stay afraid.
The ones that try to convince me I’m not enough.
The ones that tell me I don’t belong.
Then there’s no stopping me…
The power is within me.
She’s calling me back.
To where it all began.
My first home.
I don’t know why.
It pulls my heart.
She whispers to my soul.
I must go.
Never really felt like this.
Not about this place.
Nostalgia, is it?
Or is it… Something else?
The waves sing to me.
The sand warms my skin.
I’m standing before her.
The Baltic Sea.
When the stars align
And the moon shines
Maybe, maybe I’ll make you mine
Your gaze does nothing
If you’re afraid to approach
But luring me in is no easy task
Little did I know
My true nature
Has never been to serve
Bound to be King
Powerful, attractive, dangerous
Yet still kind at heart
You should see me on my throne
Approach with integrity and grace
Earn the seat beside me
Present your love
Fulfill my heart’s desire
Connect to my soul
I’m not here to rule you
Nor am I to be ruled
Emerge, embrace, unite
Take my hand
Let’s walk together
Seize most precious moments
Until the day it’s time to go
Back home, into the star clusters
Only wiser and ready to be born anew
I wanted things to happen sooner…
Faster. Quicker. Now.
And hearing the message of patience…
It made my eyes roll.
Again you tell me to wait.
How much longer can I wait?
So many years…
Just wait, wait, and wait!
The pain of waiting wasn’t nice.
But I couldn’t stop waiting.
Fortunately, I wasn’t just waiting.
I kept going forward, doing things.
There are still many things I want.
Things to achieve, to do.
Or are there?
Needless to say, it’s not a must.
I’m still waiting, and yet I’m not.
I have plans, wishes, dreams.
I feel like taking it slow.
Results are evident.
Inside and out.
A lot of things are easier now.
Worries are fading away.
It feels like I don’t need patience anymore.
I’m enjoying what is becoming of me.
I watch myself transform.
I’m excited to see what’s next.
I find joy all around me.
And within me.
This is it.
I’m becoming free as I let go.
And I’m gaining more than ever.
I now know who I was always meant to be.
The wait is over.
Oh, how beautiful you are…
Awake from your slumber…
You rise to rule.
With love and justice…
Glory you bring to us all.
Inspire the forsaken.
Wipe tears of the broken.
Your smile enlightens the Earth.
That brave heart of yours…
Freed us from our chains.
Your tears wash away our pain.
Healing wounds of the past.
Future is now ours.
Never shall we bow again.
False gods crumble before you.
The time has come…
Never again will we hide in the shadows.
With you we soar.
By your side we stand.
In the light.
Your power has no match.
The throne is yours.
Crowned before your birth.
It was always meant to be.
An eternal soul.
You showed us…
We are strong.
We are free.
Happiness is a place in your heart.