Magical Afternoon

He played the piano as I laid on the sofa, reading a book.
The sun was peeking into the room through tall, arched windows.
The wind was gently moving the curtains.
A patterned carpet covered the old wooden floor.
The fireplace sat still.

My thoughts drifted away into a cabin in the woods.
Playing the piano with open doors.
Forest creatures gathering to listen to it.
Almost like in a fairy tale.
Fingers dancing on the keys.
Playing the piano was I.

I opened my eyes to look through the windows.
Green, lush trees swayed in the wind.
Watching him and myself was I.
From another corner of the room.

Such a beautiful melody.
Singing to my soul.
He was playing the piano.
He was I.

Joy

Joy.

I didn’t know I had lost.

Empty spaces.

I thought I needed to fill with things.

Clothes.

I had bought as my style transformed.

Images.

I had seen in my head.

Future.

I thought I had desired.

Discomfort.

I couldn’t get rid of.

Realization.

I had finally welcomed.

Burden.

I didn’t know I had carried for so long.

Relief.

I’ve started to feel as I let it all go.

Myself.

I’ve uncovered and freed once more.

Joy.

I’ve welcomed back into my life.

Grief

Grief.
Over something that went missing, but won’t return.
Maybe all that was needed was a farewell.
I can look up at the sky again.
I feel relief.
I can go on again and it feels like I am turning to a new chapter.
Once again.
Speed up towards my journey.
Have my eyes on what matters most.
Ignite my dreams.

Feel

Do you… feel anything?

A gentle breeze?
A soft whisper?

Can you sense what’s coming?

In your bones.
Your heart.

Or are you… completely oblivious?

As your eyes see.
And your ears hear.

Are you… afraid?

Heir Of The Stars

Amazing things will show up before your eyes if you awaken.

And sleeping stars will shine once more.

Dark galaxies that have been forsaken, will glow again and call you home.

Under The Burning Horizon

Overlooking the cityscape under the burning horizon, I fall asleep.
I drift away into a dream and I don’t wake up.
I never want to wake up again.
I got worn out chasing a star that mesmerized me with its glow.
I wanted it to shine for me alone.
No matter what, I was never getting closer.
Reaching out, but never touching.
Forgetting everything.
Even myself.
I lay on a cloud breathless.
And there is nobody to wake me up from this dream.
Below the starry blanket there is just me.

Awakening

It’s been so long…

The dirt and the dust are brushed off by the wind.

So numb…

The wings are spreading slowly.

And this pain echoing through the eyes as they open…

The light greets.

Rainy Morning

I woke up from a dream.
I don’t remember what it was.
My eyes shot open, thinking I had to get up for work.
Damn…
And quickly a realization came.
I don’t have to go to work today.
And what’s that?
It’s a little gloomier outside than usual.
It’s raining…
A blissful feeling so rare came over me.
I don’t remember the last time I felt this way.
So warm and cozy under the blanket.
I closed my eyes and drifted back to sleep.
It’s the little things…
Things like these are where bliss hides.
Where happiness lies.
Never too far away.
Inside.

An Ode To Her

Some people say hello once in a while.
Little do they know that she’s long gone.
Someone still responds.
A shadow.
An echo.
A ghost whose traces can be found in people’s memories, photo albums, hearts.
Somewhere out there she’s still alive, still here.

I know, she’s still alive in me.
I was born through her.
I saw life through her eyes.
I experienced her joy and her tears.
Oh, so much pain still echoes through my heart and soul, her suffering that I’ve taken as mine.
She felt loved by few and even I wanted to deny her for so long.
Her existence alone…
I wished she didn’t exist.
Like darkness looming over me, over my past, and still not leaving me be in my present and my future.
Never going away.

I am the one who knows her better than anyone else and yet, for so long, I only wanted to deny her existence.
Better than anyone, I know she’s never been anything but light.
Just an innocent soul who never truly harmed anyone, especially me.
Yet I wanted her to disappear, to be forgotten, to fade away.
And fading away she began as I emerged.
What a tragedy…

Someone is still standing firm, holding her, not letting her go away.
She is their everything… and here I am.
A bad man, a crazy man, who came out of nowhere to take her away, to erase her.
That has been my intention for so long.
And what has she done to deserve this?
Her name brought shame to me.
Her existence trapped me and I couldn’t get out.
I just wanted to be free.
I wanted to be myself.
At any cost.

There are no regrets or guilt.
Even if she had nothing for me but love while I held so many negative feelings towards her.
She’s been hoping for all my hopes and dreams to come true.
And I’ve been only wishing she had never existed.
Hard to believe, but hatred wasn’t what I felt for her.
Ever.

Ever since we met, she’s been smiling and cheering for me every day as I keep going, keep fighting.
For what matters most to me.
To us.
Nobody knows me better than she does and nobody ever will.
Our souls are forever connected.
They are one.
I am only here, because she is.
And she is still here, because I am.

Darling, I’m sorry you’ll never get to live like you deserve to.
You never knew what was coming until I opened my eyes.
Yet it was one of the best days of our lives.
You may fade away to the world, but you’ll never be truly gone.
Because it’s not you whom I wish to banish and erase—it’s my fear.
It took me a long time to realize that together we are stronger.
As I stand naked and alone in my safe place and the sun kisses my bare skin, there’s nobody else but you whom I invite to stay with me.
Until our last breath.
Ačiū.

Moosey Quote You Should Live By

A Moose a day takes the sorrows away!

Holy Moose

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