Under The Burning Horizon

Overlooking the cityscape under the burning horizon, I fall asleep.
I drift away into a dream and I donā€™t wake up.
I never want to wake up again.
I got worn out chasing a star that mesmerized me with its glow.
I wanted it to shine for me alone.
No matter what, I was never getting closer.
Reaching out, but never touching.
Forgetting everything.
Even myself.
I lay on a cloud breathless.
And there is nobody to wake me up from this dream.
Below the starry blanket there is just me.

Rainy Morning

I woke up from a dream.
I donā€™t remember what it was.
My eyes shot open, thinking I had to get up for work.
Damnā€¦
And quickly a realization came.
I donā€™t have to go to work today.
And whatā€™s that?
Itā€™s a little gloomier outside than usual.
Itā€™s rainingā€¦
A blissful feeling so rare came over me.
I donā€™t remember the last time I felt this way.
So warm and cozy under the blanket.
I closed my eyes and drifted back to sleep.
Itā€™s the little thingsā€¦
Things like these are where bliss hides.
Where happiness lies.
Never too far away.
Inside.

Moose Takes On The 30-Day Minimalism Challenge

I had discovered minimalism maybe a few years back. I wouldn’t call myself a minimalist and I am not sure if I ever will, but I love the ideas, especially the idea of intentional living.

Recently, I felt the need to declutter. It’s not the first time I’ve decluttered my stuff, but this is the first time I set out to try out the so called 30-day Minimalism Game, as coined by The Minimalists. But I wanted to call it a challenge as I was sure it would be one.

The idea is to get rid of one thing on the first day, two on the second, three on the third, and so on. It all adds up to hundreds of items in the end. However, I did this in stages, instead of doing it daily. It was like binge-watching a show.

I set off on this quest alone with the intention of letting go of as many things as I can. Armed with a bunch of minimalism videos on YouTube for inspiration, I began the challenge on a sunny Saturday afternoon.

This is how it all went…

Days 1 to 10

I hit the bathroom first. There were some items that I used once, or never used at all, or had two of. I also let go of some products which I wasn’t using anymore.

Then I switched my focus to the kitchen area. That old soap had to go and so did that dead scent thingy, as well as my most recent yet unfortunate purchase that was simply… crap! Let’s just say that my plan for a nice spice organization didn’t work out.

Still in the kitchen, I went through some products I wasn’t going to use or eat. Then there were some containers, tools, cloths, a mug, and even a couple of appliances I didn’t need anymore.

Finally, I went through my medicine cabinet and let go of a few things. Surprisingly, this area was pretty good and didn’t have too much junk, expired, or unused items in it.

It was an absolute breeze to get rid of the maximum items possible for the first 10 days, adding up to 55 items.

Days 11 to 20

For the next stage, I decided to go for the most challenging area firstā€”the small room I used as a laundry room and storage place. And soon I realized that I did do a pretty great job with decluttering in the past. I found fewer things to get rid of in this room than I expected.

Well… except for a mountain of tiny product samples that surely helped me add to the number of items to declutter in this challenge. Otherwise, I got rid of a bunch of old ID and credit cards, some jewelry I forgot I still had, and just a bunch of random things I kept for whatever reason.

Then I went through a few drawers in the living room. Not too many things there, but I still managed to get rid of some. Mostly stationery.

After that, there was only the bedroom left. Conveniently, I already had a bag of clothes packed up, ready to be taken out for recycling. But I still had a lot of things to get rid of to reach the goal for this stage.

It was getting tougher!

I got into the closet to see which clothes I needed to let go of. It was more difficult than I expected, but I managed to let go of four more clothing pieces and one hanger. Maybe I would’ve kept all those clothes, but I have recently lost some weight and some of them were actually a bit too big! That felt wonderful.

I went back to the kitchen and got rid of a couple of more things. One of them being a frying pan which needed replacing. And then I was back in the bedroom again. I had some perfumes I didn’t like, so that had to go, and a few accessories.

Then I looked at some books that just didn’t seem to resonate with me and I just couldn’t finish reading them, or just didn’t seem to want to read. But I was still not quite at my goal yet.

Finally, I had a lightbulb moment! I completely forgot about my shoes. I had some shoes I never wore anymore and didn’t intend to wear again.

At the end of this stage, I successfully got rid of 155 items.

Days 21 to 30

Reaching the final stage, I knew I was going to have to be a bit more creative and as little attached to my belongings as possible. Yet mindful about not going too crazy just to meet my goal.

I went for some more shoes, extending from the previous stage. And took a look at the books that I had already read, but didn’t really wish to read again or keep.

Then I found a few more things in the kitchen I could do without. But it was time to look beyond physical things and I started looking at my digital clutter.

Oh the photos and other junk that needed deleting… That racked up to hundreds of items, so I decided to count 100 things (photos, video files, etc.) as 1 item. Otherwise, the challenge would’ve been over in a matter of minutes.

Another thing that was really important for me was clearing out my shopping carts and wishlists on some shopping apps I always used. To have less temptation to buy more stuff and be more mindful about what I buy. One of those apps had a lot of items in the cart, quickly racking up the count towards my final stage goal.

I did some thinking outside the box and cleared up my drawers at work too, which felt really great. All those papers, random stuff from who knows where, and things I didn’t need or use anymoreā€”it all went right into the trash.

Nearing the last few days, I just went all over the place, looking into all the areas and re-looking again, to make sure that I truly needed to keep what I had kept. Sitting on it a bit more and thinking about it more.

The very end was the toughest, but at this stage I managed to get rid of 255 items.

A total of 465 items were out of my apartment and my life.

With the exception of some items that were too good to be tossed away, so I put them up for sale to earn some extra cash. However, I set myself a deadline as I didn’t want these items to stay with me for too long.

Everything had to go before the end of the year. One way or another.

Profound things I’ve experienced

Even though my apartment didn’t suddenly become super empty, it still felt so much more spacious. As if it had a more open energy to it.

Space for something bigger and better.

No, not new stuff.

I had to be honest with myself. Some stuff, especially clothes, kept on staying in my closet over and over again, but I was just not wearing them. I kept them in hopes that I would, but some I haven’t worn at all since I bought them, so why would I wear them now or ever? It really just felt forced to have to wear some of them, so I said goodbye.

There was a lamp I wanted to buy so much when I first moved to this apartment, among other things. I bought it, and at the time, I was happy owning it. I would turn it on and enjoy its soft light. But during this challenge, I sold it. Not only did I feel better to have one thing less in my space, but it also didn’t feel empty. Like it was never there to begin with, and I didn’t miss it.

Sometimes things that brought us joy before just don’t do it anymore. It’s time to let go of them.

I was left with the desire to get rid of more stuff, looking at my every possession critically. But by then I also knew it was a process that will never end. Things in my life will come and go; I just need to pay more attention to what I bring into my spaces and let go of it when it’s time.

An Ode To Her

Some people say hello once in a while.
Little do they know that sheā€™s long gone.
Someone still responds.
A shadow.
An echo.
A ghost whose traces can be found in peopleā€™s memories, photo albums, hearts.
Somewhere out there sheā€™s still alive, still here.

I know, sheā€™s still alive in me.
I was born through her.
I saw life through her eyes.
I experienced her joy and her tears.
Oh, so much pain still echoes through my heart and soul, her suffering that Iā€™ve taken as mine.
She felt loved by few and even I wanted to deny her for so long.
Her existence aloneā€¦
I wished she didnā€™t exist.
Like darkness looming over me, over my past, and still not leaving me be in my present and my future.
Never going away.

I am the one who knows her better than anyone else and yet, for so long, I only wanted to deny her existence.
Better than anyone, I know sheā€™s never been anything but light.
Just an innocent soul who never truly harmed anyone, especially me.
Yet I wanted her to disappear, to be forgotten, to fade away.
And fading away she began as I emerged.
What a tragedyā€¦

Someone is still standing firm, holding her, not letting her go away.
She is their everythingā€¦ and here I am.
A bad man, a crazy man, who came out of nowhere to take her away, to erase her.
That has been my intention for so long.
And what has she done to deserve this?
Her name brought shame to me.
Her existence trapped me and I couldnā€™t get out.
I just wanted to be free.
I wanted to be myself.
At any cost.

There are no regrets or guilt.
Even if she had nothing for me but love while I held so many negative feelings towards her.
Sheā€™s been hoping for all my hopes and dreams to come true.
And Iā€™ve been only wishing she had never existed.
Hard to believe, but hatred wasnā€™t what I felt for her.
Ever.

Ever since we met, sheā€™s been smiling and cheering for me every day as I keep going, keep fighting.
For what matters most to me.
To us.
Nobody knows me better than she does and nobody ever will.
Our souls are forever connected.
They are one.
I am only here, because she is.
And she is still here, because I am.

Darling, Iā€™m sorry youā€™ll never get to live like you deserve to.
You never knew what was coming until I opened my eyes.
Yet it was one of the best days of our lives.
You may fade away to the world, but youā€™ll never be truly gone.
Because itā€™s not you whom I wish to banish and eraseā€”itā€™s my fear.
It took me a long time to realize that together we are stronger.
As I stand naked and alone in my safe place and the sun kisses my bare skin, thereā€™s nobody else but you whom I invite to stay with me.
Until our last breath.
Ačiū.

Mooseventures Of A Moosey Moose: Tales From The Throne

Imagine sitting on the throne.

Yes, I mean the toilet, in case you need a clarification.

Browsing through Moosetagram, enjoying some lit memes and shit.

Literally and figuratively.

Some time passes and you need to rise once more, emerge into the world.

Ok, just go back to laze around on your sofa, or whatever. It’s Friday!

You need to replace the toilet paper roll.

It didn’t come to you as a surprise as you knew it needed replacing beforehoof.

You prepared a fresh and fine toilet paper roll and put it close to you, so you could easily reach it when you needed to.

And the time came to reach for the stars!

Well, the toilet paper roll. It’s a great thing to reach for anymoose!

So you turned and soon the toilet paper roll was in your hooves.

*SNAP!!!*

What the fur???

You knew exactly what had just occurred.

Yes.

The damn toilet seat broke!!!

No, not the whole toilet, just to be clear (fortunately!). But the damn plastic seat just snapped!

…

Ron Burgundy WTF Meme

Moose Tries New Nomz: Getting Stuff’d

Let me tell you first hoof, this isn’t word play or a pun. That’s what the place is calledā€”stuff’dā€”mexican. turkish. delicious. (their tagline). And as you can see below, I’ve got mooseself a kebab with a message.

Chicken Kebab With A Quote On It
Ā© Mooseymares

The first bite? Nothing too special. But as I kept chomping my way down that chicken kebab, it got damn delicious very quickly! The chicken was good, veggies were nice (even that tomato, and I don’t normally like eating tomatoes), the mayo… YUM!

Chicken Kebab
Ā© Mooseymares

Apart from kebabs, they’ve got tacos, burritos, quesadillas and such. You can choose whether you want chicken or beef, different types of sauces and veggies, etc.

VERDICT: I’m coming back there for more! And you should too!

Note: I’ve bought this at the newly opened stuff’d outlet at NU Sentral (or KL Sentral, or the bridge in between those two, whatever you wanna call it!), Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.