Beauty Despite The Pain

There are times when I stop understanding. Things like hatred towards other human beings. Just because they are the way they are. Just because… they exist.

When I step away from fear and into love, I can no longer grasp why. Why is there even a need to shun those who aren’t even harming anyone. Those who just wish to be themselves, to live.

Why did we design a world like this? Yes. We did. It’s all in our hands to change it. Just because things are the way they are doesn’t mean they should be like this.

Walking through life asleep. Afraid. Surviving. That’s all so many of us have known, and we don’t even know it. It’s safer that way. But is it life?

I like those times when I stop understanding. When I’m awake. When I look around and see the beauty despite the pain.

Fearless

I’ve been afraid for so long.

Hiding away.

So many worries and fears had surrounded me.

Scary thoughts still creep up on me.

But I feel a calm like never before.

I just know I can never have it all.

Unless I step into the light.

Leave the shadows behind me.

Many of these fears weren’t even mine.

Like restless spirits, they’ve been haunting those around me.

I am letting them go.

They can no longer hold onto me.

We will meet again with some of them.

And new ones may show up in my life.

But I want to remember, always.

I came fearless into this world.

It’s Time

He who sleeps inside.
The eyes have opened.

Let me out, let me go.

He who slept inside.
Knocking on the door.

Let me out, let me go.

He who opened his eyes.
It is time to run now.

Let me out, let me go.

He who is suffocating.
The lungs are starving for fresh air.

Let me out, let me go.

He who cries at night.
It has been too long.

Let me out, let me go.

He who existed silently.
This life is worth living.

Let me out, let me go.

He who is breaking free.
It is time to fly.

Let him out, let him go.

Royalty

I didn’t ask for anyone to lead me, but so many felt like they needed to.
I never wanted anyone to hold my hand and guide me, but yet someone still felt the need to drag me their way.
Those boulders on my path were never really that scary, but the voices around me told otherwise.
Holding hands high, they were praying to a god I stopped believing in so long ago.
I never wanted to be ruled, but they tried anyway.
I only wanted to be free, but I allowed their chains to wrap around my body and soul.
Lost in an illusion that I couldn’t let go.
When I snapped my chains, I put a crown on my head unknowingly.
Who could’ve thought that I was a royalty.

Magical Afternoon

He played the piano as I laid on the sofa, reading a book.
The sun was peeking into the room through tall, arched windows.
The wind was gently moving the curtains.
A patterned carpet covered the old wooden floor.
The fireplace sat still.

My thoughts drifted away into a cabin in the woods.
Playing the piano with open doors.
Forest creatures gathering to listen to it.
Almost like in a fairy tale.
Fingers dancing on the keys.
Playing the piano was I.

I opened my eyes to look through the windows.
Green, lush trees swayed in the wind.
Watching him and myself was I.
From another corner of the room.

Such a beautiful melody.
Singing to my soul.
He was playing the piano.
He was I.

Joy

Joy.

I didn’t know I had lost.

Empty spaces.

I thought I needed to fill with things.

Clothes.

I had bought as my style transformed.

Images.

I had seen in my head.

Future.

I thought I had desired.

Discomfort.

I couldn’t get rid of.

Realization.

I had finally welcomed.

Burden.

I didn’t know I had carried for so long.

Relief.

I’ve started to feel as I let it all go.

Myself.

I’ve uncovered and freed once more.

Joy.

I’ve welcomed back into my life.

Grief

Grief.
Over something that went missing, but won’t return.
Maybe all that was needed was a farewell.
I can look up at the sky again.
I feel relief.
I can go on again and it feels like I am turning to a new chapter.
Once again.
Speed up towards my journey.
Have my eyes on what matters most.
Ignite my dreams.