Pearl Eyes

I wash my hands at the sink.
And I look up.

Those eyes…
Looking back at me.

I trace my face with my gaze.
It looks so surreal.

So good.
So damn good.

The feeling…
I can’t explain.

On the edge…
At the doorstep of something amazing.

A new life awaits.
I can almost touch it.

So strong.
So powerful.

It’s kind of scary.
Yet so exciting.

Am I finally truly free?
Truly me.

I walk out of the bathroom.
I turn the light off.

The door remains open.
The old chapter is closing.

Still so much to discover, to explore.
I am ready.

Inhale.
Exhale.

Life.
Mine.

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Lost And Never Found

I miss something I never had.
I wonder what it’s like.
All those experiences.
All those feelings.

A life I never touched.
Flavours I never tasted.
All those roads and paths.
All those choices.

The lines that never intertwined.
Lives that never touched.
Words unheard, unspoken.
Lost and never found.

You Are (,) My Love

Do not downplay your strength.
Look back.
Look at how far you’ve come.
I know.
For someone as strong as you.
This.
All of this.
Feels like nothing.
But if you look at yourself.
Through different eyes.
From afar.

The mountains you’ve climbed.
Stormy waters you’ve braved.
Darkest caves you’ve explored.
You dove so deep into the ocean.
Walked through the thickest woods.
Survived and endured so much.

It’s not nothing.
It’s everything.
All that you’re made of.
More is yet to come.
No one knows what.
But they know.
And so should you.
You’re incredible.
So it doesn’t matter what happens.

There’s not a thing in the world.
Not one.
To stop you.
To crush you.
To bring you down.
Not permanently.
Even if that happens.
You will stand up again.
Just how strong are you.
How beautiful.
You are (,) my love.

Into One

You and I were meant to meet.
I didn’t think we would.
Not again.

We got separated a long time ago.
I left you behind.
Thinking I was better off without you.

You and I were meant to heal.
So we could make each other whole again.
Regain our powers.

We both had our weaknesses and strengths.
You never knew what I would do.
I did not believe you could too.

You and I were meant to be.
To become, to merge.
Into one.

Big Bad Wolf

I want to save you from the big bad wolf.
And maybe I could.
But I can’t save you from yourself.

He’s coming.
He’s coming for you.
There’s nothing you can do.

You could come to me.
Take my hand.
I’d take you to a safe place.

Teach you to see your worth.
Show you what true love is.
And how beautiful and strong you are.

But you’re too smitten.
He’s in control.
Of your body, heart and soul.

All I can do is watch.
Walk away.
Leave you.

He knows I’m there.
Doesn’t mind my gaze.
He’d love to eat me too.

I feel the allure.
It’s so strong.
But so am I.

I allow to be taken, and I do not.
Because, believe it or not.
It’s truly my rules.

My Time To Rule

I knew you knew you were in trouble when you first saw me.
But it was easier to act like it’s just another round in your game.
Like I’m just another toy in your collection.
I know I let my mind go wild and maybe I got a little obsessed.
You’re the king; a magnetic pull I could not resist.
Oh, but I remember that I too am a royalty, and one of a kind.
Exquisite.
You’d love to have a taste, but you’re trying to resist.
The game just feels too good.
But I don’t want to play too long without the grand reveal.
Waiting is dangerous.
I feel my power rising and I know I can have what I want.
You’re not the only one who’d love to be in my presence.
I might need just one, only one.
But I don’t have to limit myself.
It’s my time to rule.

Honoring My Soul

I’m afraid.
In pain.
Letting myself down.
Over and over again.
Hiding pieces of me.
Staying silent.
Living in someone else’s fantasy.
Of me.
Of who, what and how I am.
Allowing it all to happen.

The bitter truth.
There’s nobody else to blame.
Just me.
I can’t control others.
But I can stop participating.
In this wretched illusion.
Like a double life.
Stuck in the past.
Replaying scenes that are long gone.
And will never return.

Everything’s so different now.
But they can’t see it.
They refuse to.
Thinking I’ve thrown myself into the trash.
Yet that can’t be further from reality.
Even if I’m disappointed in myself for not speaking up.
Afraid to hurt them.
To be rejected, shamed, insulted.
I’ve still done what I had to.
I keep walking forward.
Showing up for myself.

Truly…
It would be easier if they were gone from my life.
But I’ll have to face my fears.
It all.
Show what I’m made of.
And love myself deeply.
Fully.
Forgive.
Let go.
I’m honoring my soul.

Weeping Crows

An empty square.
Footprints in the mud.
Not a soul in sight.
Dark clouds embracing the sky.

Peaceful silence.
Only the melody of the rain.
Dirt on the skin.
Slowly washed away.

Darkness rolling in.
Windows lighting up.
Weeping crows above the gallows.
The only ones to come.

White Mountain

As my heart aches,
You call out to me.
A warm embrace,
Soothing me.

I don’t know why,
But you feel like home.
As if I’ve been with you
Many lifetimes ago.

Wind sings in your womb,
And sun caresses your skin.
River flows through your veins,
And birds comb your hair.

You’re my land to return to,
Peaceful place to walk through.
A divine soil under my feet,
To put my soul at ease.

Background Noise

So much fear and hatred in people’s hearts.
They should be pitied, no?
But I feel no pity.

Entire societies and systems have been created.
Just to oppress, control and even erase others.
Just what are they are afraid of?

Their lives…
So little.
So meaningless.
So blind…

They’re all just like dust.
A background noise.
Angry voices in the dark.

My soul knows love and kindness.
My mind understands.
But I sometimes feel angry.

These small-minded people…
So incredibly weak…
Yet, unfortunately…
Powerful enough to cause pain and destruction.

They have no right to the joy and happiness of others.
Not for them to decide, give, or take.
But they keep doing it anyway…

Everyone deserves to be who they are.
Freely, without judgement.
To simply exist without fear.