Worship me…
This body…
It’s perfection.
Death is mine.
But so is life.
A special power.
I allow you to touch.
To have this divine flesh.
Approach with love.
The pleasure is mine.
You may enter my temple.
Fulfill your desire.
So beautiful…
Made of stardust.
My beloved.
It’s a gift.
A blessing.
A kiss of a god(ess).
Tag: love
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The hardest promises to keep are the ones we make to ourselves.
At least, this has been the case for me.
But I want you to know…
Don’t feel bad about not keeping those promises.
It’s easy to forget…
One moment you’re on top of the world.
You know you can do it.
You have the power.
And then…
Life knocks you down.
Fear and insecurities set in.
You feel different.
You do what you have to do.
Your thoughts take you to another realm.
You slip back into things you wanted to leave behind.
And then…
You judge yourself.
Feel bad about yourself.
Unworthy.
But you are…
Worthy and enough.
Being of love.
Just give yourself a helping hand.
To remember…
You’re strong.
It is up to you to make the changes you need in your life.
To strive and thrive.
And take back all…
All you thought that was lost within you.
But it was only asleep.
Waiting to be awoken.
Once more.
Trust.
Believe.
Embrace.
Love. -
And there will be no perfection…
Not in reflection of a mirror.
Not the walls.
Not the floor.
Not the door.
Not the windows.
Not in anything that’s ever meant to serve…
Inanimate objects made by man.
Until you grasp the perfection of mortality.
In the eternal saga of creation.
A rock, a bird, or a tree…
None seek perfection.
Yet they achieve it.
Simply by being.
It’s just humanity…
The one who judges and deems something…
Either perfect or imperfect.
Beautiful or ugly.
That in itself could be deemed a flaw.
And yet…
By design…
Even all the chaos, destruction and pain…
Are perfect.
As they are.
Perfection does not bend to morality.
It’s just humanity who seeks redemption.
In everything they could possibly find.
And in this desperation they fall blind.
Unable to see it right in front of them.
The beautiful being…
That they are.
And all the beauty that there is.
Always within reach.
With love. -
Every year there are moments when I wonder…
What will my life look like a year from now?
It’s all getting better and I feel stronger within myself with time.
But there’s another thing that gets stronger…
The longing to find someone to share my life with.
Someone who really gets me.
Someone I can do things with.
Bask in joy.
And never…
Never feel alone again.
It’s as if loneliness gets heavier with time.
And as much as I love being alone…
Feeling lonely isn’t it.
It’s nagging me more and more…
I just wish I could feel what it’s like to truly be loved.
Be the first choice.
Feel things I’ve never felt before.
Experience things I’ve never experienced before.
And never have my fears assure me again that I’ve fallen into a pit of dreams…
Dreams that so easily go up in smoke.
Get disappointed over and over again…
It seems so easy for many others.
Like it just happens.
Fate?
Destiny?
Magic?
I wonder why it doesn’t happen to me.
But I never stop dreaming…
Hoping…
Maybe…
One day…
Someday…
I’ll have someone beside me. -
I could wait for you.
For many lifetimes.
Even if we meet.
Connect.
But to keep the connection…
To truly stay…
Feel…
Are you ready?
I know I am.
For someone to show up.
Fully.
I feel your soul.
But I don’t know.
To stay or to go?
Something tells me…
Go.
There’s something more for me.
A kiss for my soul.
A love for my heart.
A desire…
To be fulfilled.
It’s so easy for me to attach…
When others walk.
And I keep expecting…
Things from those who can’t give.
But it’s time to receive.
To let go.
So speak your truth.
Nothing but.
From deep inside your soul.
Yes or no? -
Don’t be sad.
Your biggest love is right here.
With you.
Always.
The love of your life.
You. -
Some people don’t like it when you rise to the top.
They cannot stand that you’re successful.
And so I’ve learned…
Not to be afraid of being an asshole.
Whether on purpose or not.
To someone, somewhere, you will always be one.
Some people can’t stand it when you resist.
They cannot deal with the fact you’re not taking it like a champ when they’re beating you down.
And they only see what they want to see.
Through their own pain and suffering.
Their level of understanding and beliefs.
As much as anyone would love to make someone else see things differently, it might just be impossible.
And so you must live with that.
Deal with it.
When you have the tools to handle it, you can come through the other side even better.
As we seek love and acceptance, this may be no easy task.
To accept that sometimes we won’t be loved and accepted.
And to love…
First and foremost.
Ourselves. -
I forgive myself for…
Not speaking up.
Hesitating.
Not taking action.
I forgive myself for…
Letting myself down countless times.
Not being there for myself.
Hiding, avoiding, running away.
I forgive myself for…
Not loving myself enough.
Not standing up for myself and others.
Allowing fear to control my life.
I forgive myself for…
Not being kind to myself.
Not letting my inner child roam free.
Not accepting myself as a whole.
I forgive myself for…
Holding onto pain and things for too long.
Distancing myself from the world.
Not allowing love and joy to enter my heart. -
When the sun sets
I’ll come home
Open the door into the dark
Step into silence
You’ll be sat in the light
Just how you sit in the evenings
Every day
Among voices, among sounds
Once upon a time, our home was under one roof
And the warmth held me in its embrace
Even though sometimes tears were flowing in the moonlight
It was my place
Don’t tell me you love me
When you can’t hear me
Don’t ask for betrayal
When you can’t see me
Close your eyes, listen to the beating heart
Body trapped in the grasp of fear
Chest heavy from thousands of unspoken words
Thoughts spinning in the head, never stopping
Pain did not spare anyone
But we imprisoned ourselves in cages
Wrapped in chains
And placed locks
I remember the fresh scent of a summer morning
And the scent of a starry night
Looking up at the sky, I said I was home
And nobody could’ve known what would happen in the future
Don’t tell me you love me
When you don’t respect me
Don’t ask me to change
When you can’t accept me
Standing in front of the mirror, I finally see myself
Love blooms in my eyes that I have never known
Incredible beauty and perfection before me
What seemed unattainable is finally within reach
I’ll take everything I can
Let the light caress my skin
Breathe life in, like a breath of air
Before diving into the depths of a lake
The chains are already on the ground
And the locks lie nearby
The cage doors are open
Freedom in beast’s eyes
Originally written in Lithuanian:
Laisvė žvėries akyse
Kai saulė nusileis
Aš grįšiu namo
Atidarysiu duris į tamsą
Įžengsiu į tylą
Tu sėdėsi šviesoje
Taip kaip sėdi vakarais
Kiekvieną dieną
Tarp balsų, tarp garsų
Kadaise mūsų namai buvo po vienu stogu
Ir mane glėbyje laikė šiluma
Nors kartais tyliai ašaros liejosi mėnesienoj
Tai buvo mano vieta
Nesakyk, kad myli
Kai manęs negirdi
Neprašyk išdavystės
Kai manęs matyti negali
Užsimerk, paklausyk kaip širdis plaka
Baimės gniaužtuose įkalintam kūne
Krūtinę spaudžia tūkstančiai neišsakytų žodžių
Galvoje sukasi mintys, niekada nesustoja
Skausmas nei vieno nepagailėjo
Bet save narvuose įkalinome patys
Apjuosėme grandinėmis
Ir užkabinome spynas
Atsimenu gaivų vasaros ryto orą
Ir žvaigždėtos nakties aromatą
Žiūrėdamas į dangų sakiau, kad esu namuose
Ir niekas negalėjo žinoti kas bus ateityje
Nesakyk, kad myli
Kai manęs negerbi
Neprašyk pasikeisti
Kai manęs priimti negali
Atsistojęs prieš veidrodį pagaliau matau save
Akyse žydi meilė, kurios nepažinojau niekada
Neįtikėtinas grožis ir tobulybė prieš mane
Tai kas atrodė nepasiekiama, pagaliau pasiekiama ranka
Aš pasiimsiu viską ką galiu
Leisiu šviesai glamonėti mano odą
Įkvėpsiu gyvenimą tarsi oro gurkšnį
Prieš neriant į ežero gelmes
Grandinės jau ant žemės
Ir spynos guli šalia
Narvo durys atviros
Laisvė žvėries akyse -
Life is…
…too short to not…
Give up caring what others think.
Stop worrying about things that don’t matter.
Stop doing what you hate.
Let go of fear.
End conformity and let your true self shine.
…too fragile to not…
Cherish every moment.
Savour the essence of life.
Allow love to enter your body and soul.
Stand tall for yourself and others.
Fight for what truly matters.
…too precious to not…
Open your eyes to the truth.
Feel joy even when facing pain and suffering.
Clear your heart of hatred.
Be kind.
Live.
P.S. Life always finds a way.