The stars belong with me.
Tag: thoughts
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Rise.
Transform.
Let it all burn.
Away. -
I’m a man.
But also both a god and a goddess. -
As he is. I become.
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Some people don’t like it when you rise to the top.
They cannot stand that you’re successful.
And so I’ve learned…
Not to be afraid of being an asshole.
Whether on purpose or not.
To someone, somewhere, you will always be one.
Some people can’t stand it when you resist.
They cannot deal with the fact you’re not taking it like a champ when they’re beating you down.
And they only see what they want to see.
Through their own pain and suffering.
Their level of understanding and beliefs.
As much as anyone would love to make someone else see things differently, it might just be impossible.
And so you must live with that.
Deal with it.
When you have the tools to handle it, you can come through the other side even better.
As we seek love and acceptance, this may be no easy task.
To accept that sometimes we won’t be loved and accepted.
And to love…
First and foremost.
Ourselves. -
A while ago I felt him awaken within me.
For the longest time, he slept.
Caged and chained.
He’s free now, I thought.
I’ve let him go, but I still put a leash on him.
I guess, I was afraid to let him roam.
Completely free to go anywhere he wants.
Do whatever he wants.
Oh, and he’s got no fear.
Thoughts and opinions of others mean nothing.
He’s freedom itself.
One I’ve desired for so, so long.
I’ve come to love him.
Stronger and deeper with time.
He has no concept of perfection.
Or ownership.
He’s got the courage to take what he wants and needs.
But he doesn’t need to be brave.
He doesn’t need to be anything.
He just is.
Thus, he can have it all.
He has it all.
Judgement haunts me, but is nothing to him.
My beliefs stop me.
While he believes in nothing.
He doesn’t need to.
So what happens if I truly let go?
I know that a lot of amazing things will come.
But it’s a special feeling that pushes me forward.
I feel him rise.
As he does, so do I.
A feeling so strong.
So extremely powerful.
Like a broken dam that can no longer hold the flow of a river.
My thoughts, fears, anxiety.
The way I judge myself.
My desire to be good, so I can be seen as good by others.
Be loved by others.
It’s all just broken pieces of what I thought I should be.
No longer capable of stopping who I am.
It’s time to level up.
I no longer fit in this box.
Never was supposed to.
It’s not easy.
Uncomfortable.
Even painful at times.
But it’s just so damn incredible.
To feel this power.
To know I’m more than I ever thought I could be.
His leash.
It must go.
Life.
Let it flow. -
If only I silence my thoughts…
The ones that want me to stay afraid.
The ones that try to convince me I’m not enough.
The ones that tell me I don’t belong.
Then there’s no stopping me…
From anything.
Ever again.
The power is within me. -
I wanted things to happen sooner…
Faster. Quicker. Now.
And hearing the message of patience…
It made my eyes roll.
Again you tell me to wait.
How much longer can I wait?
So many years…
Just wait, wait, and wait!
The pain of waiting wasn’t nice.
But I couldn’t stop waiting.
Fortunately, I wasn’t just waiting.
I kept going forward, doing things.
There are still many things I want.
Things to achieve, to do.
Or are there?
Needless to say, it’s not a must.
I’m still waiting, and yet I’m not.
I have plans, wishes, dreams.
But instead…
I feel like taking it slow.
Results are evident.
Inside and out.
A lot of things are easier now.
Worries are fading away.
It feels like I don’t need patience anymore.
I’m enjoying what is becoming of me.
I watch myself transform.
With wonder.
I’m excited to see what’s next.
I find joy all around me.
And within me.
This is it.
I’m becoming free as I let go.
And I’m gaining more than ever.
I now know who I was always meant to be.
The wait is over. -
Happiness is a place in your heart.
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I forgive myself for…
Not speaking up.
Hesitating.
Not taking action.
I forgive myself for…
Letting myself down countless times.
Not being there for myself.
Hiding, avoiding, running away.
I forgive myself for…
Not loving myself enough.
Not standing up for myself and others.
Allowing fear to control my life.
I forgive myself for…
Not being kind to myself.
Not letting my inner child roam free.
Not accepting myself as a whole.
I forgive myself for…
Holding onto pain and things for too long.
Distancing myself from the world.
Not allowing love and joy to enter my heart.
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