The stars belong with me.
A town I used to call home.
Somehow feels so foreign now.
And my parents’ house…
It just feels tired now.
No longer cozy.
And it’s as if everything’s familiar…
But there’s no feeling of nostalgia.
I tiny piece inside me feels betrayal.
Even more so, now I want to say…
It’s not home.
It’s not my home.
Even if I used to love it so much as a kid.
Now I just feel like a guest.
A guest who’s been there many times before.
And this was just another visit.
That child from long ago wonders…
How can I do this?
Not a single piece of my heart?
How can I feel like this?
How can it be?
But not to me.
Not to who I am today.
I just want to…
To let it go.
All of it.
Let it all burn.
I’m a man.
But also both a god and a goddess.
As he is. I become.
Don’t be sad.
Your biggest love is right here.
The love of your life.
Some people don’t like it when you rise to the top.
They cannot stand that you’re successful.
And so I’ve learned…
Not to be afraid of being an asshole.
Whether on purpose or not.
To someone, somewhere, you will always be one.
Some people can’t stand it when you resist.
They cannot deal with the fact you’re not taking it like a champ when they’re beating you down.
And they only see what they want to see.
Through their own pain and suffering.
Their level of understanding and beliefs.
As much as anyone would love to make someone else see things differently, it might just be impossible.
And so you must live with that.
Deal with it.
When you have the tools to handle it, you can come through the other side even better.
As we seek love and acceptance, this may be no easy task.
To accept that sometimes we won’t be loved and accepted.
And to love…
First and foremost.
If only I silence my thoughts…
The ones that want me to stay afraid.
The ones that try to convince me I’m not enough.
The ones that tell me I don’t belong.
Then there’s no stopping me…
The power is within me.
She’s calling me back.
To where it all began.
My first home.
I don’t know why.
It pulls my heart.
She whispers to my soul.
I must go.
Never really felt like this.
Not about this place.
Nostalgia, is it?
Or is it… Something else?
The waves sing to me.
The sand warms my skin.
I’m standing before her.
The Baltic Sea.
When the stars align
And the moon shines
Maybe, maybe I’ll make you mine
Your gaze does nothing
If you’re afraid to approach
But luring me in is no easy task
Little did I know
My true nature
Has never been to serve
Bound to be King
Powerful, attractive, dangerous
Yet still kind at heart
You should see me on my throne
Approach with integrity and grace
Earn the seat beside me
Present your love
Fulfill my heart’s desire
Connect to my soul
I’m not here to rule you
Nor am I to be ruled
Emerge, embrace, unite
Take my hand
Let’s walk together
Seize most precious moments
Until the day it’s time to go
Back home, into the star clusters
Only wiser and ready to be born anew